An Abstract of Her Life.

8/30/2005 12:22:00 PM, Tuesday, August 30, 2005

apologies to ma readers... sorie if im too mushy in my previous or upcoming entries...
its dat im juz xpressing my feelings.... apologies ya....

went out meet fiko ard pasir ris juz now...
i seldom meet him at pasir ris..
haha.. reason being, i always came late...
hehe.. girls girls girls...

he was acting wierd today....
kinda too sweet...
hehe.... he bought me double cheeseburger w/o me asking for it...
he bought me one whole plastic of different small chocz n bought me some panadols coz im still having my mense cramps.....

i taught him for a while....
he's kinda weak in his maths...
i hope he can manage his prelims...
knowing his standard now, i reali need to help him in his studies...

he read my previous post....
haha... dint xpect him to, coz his comp is down...
he was touched by it...
looove him so so much...

after dat, we went to have dinner at changi...
he recommended me diz 'soto ayam'....
he was soooo 'smangat' dat he actually went all the way to the other side of the coffee shop, to let me try the soto ayam...
but he forgotten something...
i cant eat spicy food...
it juz kills my appetite...
haha... poor b b... he ate everyting up...
felt bad but can do noting bout it...

hmmm gotta sleep early today...
meeting ma old frens tomorrow...
cant wait to meet dem...
miss dem so much hahaha.
hope i could sleep early today...

im vain today...
haha... only my photos were taken today...
b b only got his stupid hands on my photos...
made the loove shape using the chocolates he bought me...
hehe... nice...
here they are...........

im loving it.... hehehe

8/30/2005 03:15:00 AM,

diz song is dedicated to my darl, cookie, b b wateva i called u.. haha

wheneva u r not by my side,
my dayz r dull...
no big smiles no laughter.....
no love... no being loved....

foreva missing ur hugs...... ur arms around me.....
ur jokes..... the way u disturb me....
the look in ur eyes....
n ur eyes especially.....

wonder how i gonna live without u...
will i b able to cope??
who will listen to ma sorrows??
who can i vent my angers on??
who will comfort me wen im down??
who will look after me wen im hurt??
who will 'teman' me wen i go out??

u r the first guy dat touched my true inner feelings....
who allows me to b myself wheneva im out wif u....
not having to worry bout how i behave....
how ppl will look or think of me....
u allow me to b myself...
the person who i really am.....

im so fortunate to have u as my guys....
im glad wat happened in the past happened....
i dun regret anyting eventhough it took me sooo looong
to forget the incident....

r the one who 'return' my smiles....
who made me happy again....
who made me 'live'....
im so soorie to neglect u at first....

but now... i trully love u....
u r a part of me.....
n dat wont change.....
never......
loove u always, muhammad taufik...
muacks...... *hugs*

-=fikzila=--=120603=-

ps:widot!!!! thnx for the song... looove it sooo much.. looove u too... hahaha.... *hugs* thnx dearie

8/29/2005 10:53:00 PM, Monday, August 29, 2005

oooo shoot... i did it again... i went overboard..... god... wat'z gonna happen next....... damn it......

8/29/2005 04:33:00 PM,

im having a very bad mense cramp...
every mth, wen diz happens, i tend to b very sensitive...
i get irritated, mad, sad n tired ezly....
poor fiko always get shouts from me for no reason...
suppose to b meeting him todae but bcoz of my temper, i dcided not to...
haiz...... is it ma fault? nah i dun tink so....
its not us gurls who ask for it...
itz juz nature..

i feel bad for him......
he always get scolded for notings......
sometimes, i juz get mad wen he keeps on calling....
especially wen im having a very bad mense cramp...
i juz couldnt help it...
the pain was so excruciating.....
wif my mom shoutin at the kitchen...
nag here nag there......
i could contain ma irritation no more n....
i vent it at HIM... ma guy.. ma everytin....

went he gimme a call after dat, i cried....
am i crazy or wat....??
he dint noe i cried.....
i juz feel bad....
sori dear....
gonna make somemore edits on ma blog...
not now....
later mayb.....
i still have yet to make my sis one...
i promised to make her a blogskin....
i did one... but it was half way done...
haha sori sis....

miss u dear....
gonna search for my mense pills.....
.........................................................

8/29/2005 05:56:00 AM,

im done wif ma skin....
not fully done thoug...
there's somethings dat i need to change...
not some but a lot!!!
i juz dun like seeing wat im lookin at....
anyway, thnx widot for starting wif the color scheme...
u shld haf help me do the skin instead...
hahaha...
wanna have ma sleep...
hope u guys comment on my layout....
r the fonts ok? loading time n stuff like dat....
"nitey nite" all...
i wanna sleeep....
*yawn*

8/28/2005 07:26:00 AM, Sunday, August 28, 2005

_cLiCk Pix To EnLaRgE_
ShLd i ChAnGe my SkiN tO DiZ oNe..... isit nice? or do i need to edit somemore??? as in reduce the pic size n stuff lidat.
comments plz.... ten q....

8/26/2005 04:25:00 PM, Friday, August 26, 2005

went out for awhile... dint noe where to go..
ended up wasting time at ps...
talking bout future n stuff...
some pix taken todae again...
erm others r uploaded in ma gallary..
do visit dem aite....

sorie for e lousy pic quality.... hahaha...
all thnx to ma lousy fon....
wat to do..
no more 6260 hp...
hahaha..
wheeee........

8/26/2005 02:45:00 PM,

aT LaSt....
iM DoNe....
My SeMs EXaMs r oVeR....
WoHOOo... ToDaE MaRkS e EnD oR mY 4 StReSsFuL DaE......
overaLL....... accounting was the worst paper....
i hope i dint fail tat *fUrKinG* paper....
haiz.... pray hard......
marketing- sure pass...
accounting- 50/50
statistic- pass
econs- pass
went out wif b juz now.....
missed him soo much....
he was 30minutes LATE!! LATE!! LATE!!
hehehe... dun reali mind actualli.....
even when he's late, he showed me dat stupid smile of him from inside e bus....
gundu u b b.....

went town s usual.... walk ard far east, my "hang out" place....
miss eating at "puncak".....
ate ma fav HONEYDEW CHICKEN NOODLES!! yum yum!!!
b b dint eat... he hate eating at dat place...
he said dat dat food sux...
but i loike.....
since he was late, i demand him to "blanja" dinner....
hahaha noti me..... he olso ordered wanton as he dint wanna eat anyting....
i dint noe y im eating so so so much diz days...
im growing fat..... mayb bcoz my aunts kept on "tegor-ing" me y im so thin....
now im eating non stop....
stupid stomach... i hate u... hahaha....
took some pixies....
stupid pixies i can say.. hahaha.....
gonna change my skin one of diz daez....
juz wat n c.... pixie pixie here they r.... others i'll upload in my small gallery... hahaha... dun forget to visit them aite....

FiK n HiS GeGeRl pOsE HaHa.. NoTICe SuMtiNg? He'S GoT a "LoVe" sHaPe NoSe...
i LoiKe.....

gOt No CoMmEnT oN DiZ PiC.. HaHa... PuRPLeLiZeD...
WhEEEEE........

8/25/2005 09:04:00 AM, Thursday, August 25, 2005

8/23/2005 06:02:00 PM, Tuesday, August 23, 2005

left a few hours for me to sleep...
i blogged bcoz i feel like blogging...
studied accountings last min....
hate accounting...
but y the hell did i take accountancy & finance?
onli god noees...
im stupid.. real stupid....
dint haf time to study as i followed my beloved mom n sis to compass....
yeah, im sick..
the crazy sick n the actual sick...
im unwell...
not enuf rest n juz got a new sexy voice...haha aka SORETHROAT
been sleepin late in order to study for my papers..
luckily for ma mktg was alrite..
everting i studied came out.
now im not gonna give up on accounts..
gonna try my best....
papaya, u better be there.. make urself invisible n help me out.. haha

b b, u reali dissapoint me for 2 consequent days...
u sleep w/o telling me eventhoough u promised to do so...
u r reali bad....
im left alone studying n there u r sleeping..
u r unwell n so m i...
im worst isnt it?
i got ma exams to take but u dont...
juz dun forget to study....
i hope to c u in MA SCH in future...
but still.. it goes w/o saying
loove u owaes n been missing u....

haha.. dats all for this 'MorN'.. yeah tink soo..
gonna make full use of my leftover sleeping time...
pray for me aite silent readers...
said dat bcoz many entered ma blog but none tagged.
its sad isnt it...?
enuf of my crapz..
take care u guyz out dae...
gud nite......

8/21/2005 05:27:00 PM, Sunday, August 21, 2005

after 1 week of "exam breaK", finally im settled dwn to start STUDYING!! haha.. yes studyng.. i have not really started studying.. im left wif one more dae to study... haha... juz dun feel like studying datz all.. now im studying my mkting... i even got time to go out, jalan jalan wif B, walk here walk there.... its fun to b wif him... to be in his arms n stuff like dat... hahaha... im starting to feel mushy... but datz how u feel wen u haf ur own guy... everyting seems perfect... he wasnt the guy i wanted at first.. but i "shaped" him up.... i could say WE shaped each other up... haiz... enuf of dat....

At last, we got ourself a similar pair of sandals.. im loving it.. hehehe... poor fiko... he downgrade his 6260(i tink, the flip flip one) to 6510... poor him... he said he needed $.. i dun even noe for wat... welll... hmmmm... i got noting more to log actually.... hahah.... update again later..... PLZ PLZ PLZ wish me allt he best for my SEMS exam.........
SoMe StUpiD PiX HeRe FOR u GuYS TO C.. HaHA... CiAoZ.... WhEeEeE

loove him wearing like dat... but he dint like it.. stupid fiko.. bush!

8/16/2005 04:49:00 AM, Tuesday, August 16, 2005

mepek mepek mepek.. erghhh.... sux... im on hiatus for awhile.... next week is my SEM exams.... wish me luck ok? i dun wish to retain my first year.. thnx for visiting ma blog guys....

8/14/2005 07:00:00 PM, Sunday, August 14, 2005

i GoT DiZ WhiLe SuRfiNg...
JuZ WaNtS u To NoE...
i LoVe u OwAeZ..

wHen a gerl cries in front of u.....
if a girl cries in front of u,
it means that she couldnt take it anymore.
If u take her hand,she would stay with u for the rest of ur life;
If u let her go, she couldnt go back to being herself anymore.
A gal wont cry easily, except in front of the person whom she loves the most,
she becomes weak.
A gal wont cry easily,
only when she love u the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,
please hold her hands firmly,
coz she's the one who is willing to stay with u 4 for the restof ur life.
Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of ur decision,
u ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of u,
When she cry bcoz of u,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?
Think.
Which other girl have cried with puresincerity,
In front of u, And bcoz of u?
She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy orpity,
She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain,
hurt n agony have bcome too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys, Think about it,
If a gal cry her heart out to u,
And all because of u,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only u will know the answer to it.
Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may b too late for regrets,
It may b too late to say "im sorry".

Dat was wat happen dat time....
Hope u still remember bout it..
Love u lots....

PS:to dearest widot aka ida, thnx for hosting ma gallery.

8/14/2005 01:34:00 PM,

YeStErDaY WaS OuR 2YrS 2MtHs ANniVERsArY... iF AnYoNe KnEw OuR HiStOrY, u GuYz WoNt TinK DaT We WiLL SuRViVe FOR a LoNg TiMe... LoVe yA OwAeZ DaRL....
-=FiKZiLa=-

WeNt tO QuEenSWay just now wif... who else?? ma guy la... hehehe.... i dreaded goin there as the journey is a long one n i was owaez on a look out for conductor.. HaHa.. WaNnA NoE y? Cannot tell... hahaha.....

Anyway went there coz my guy kept on wanting to go there... wats so special bout at place? its so damn boring but there's a few interesting shops.. One of them is the Beads Sumting, i forgot the name... iT sells cheap accessories for gerls... very cheap i can say.......

bLa bLa bLa... walked here and there, round n round and we went home.. we went out late afternoon coz i woke up late. really lat.. ard 330 i tink... haha.. gerls shldnt wake up late rite coz its not "sweet" but i DUN CARE COZ I NEED MY SLEEP.. hehehe... slept late yest.. round 7am i tink....

b4 we went home, we went arcade.. there's diz small stupid arcade where there's only like 2 ppl inside? b missed competing DAYTONA wif me thus, i followed him. Guess wat? i won TWICE!! not once but TWICE!! hehehe... wen i won the first race, he wasnt satisfied n wanted another race... n for the second time.. he sat beside me n keep disturbing my ermmm wats dat called.... shit i forgot..... gear is it? yeah my gear.. he kept changin my gear in order to slow down my car... very bad of him... i was like laughin n shouting at him to stop but at last... i WON AGAIN... HAHAHA.. B B, u juz cant win me... Too bad...

i remembered the first time i tried playing daytona.. i was like an idiot... haha serious... i cant even get hold f the steering wheel.. it sux... my b was like laughin at me... it was realli funny... even diz small boy, who was there at dat time, knew how to play...hahaha...

shit... gtg my mom's calling me... need to go to the shop dwnstairs... wat a pain... i go first aite... tke care u guyz... BB love u owaez.. mwah.. LOSER!! hahakz... nice "performance" juz now... hahaha..... bYE!!

8/12/2005 01:17:00 PM, Friday, August 12, 2005

__cApTuReD uNaTtEnTioNaLLy__

__DaTz e ShiRt.. NiCe??__

__Y LiKe dAt? sMiLe La__

__DuN SqUeEzE mE!!__

__aPeK WaiTiNg fOr MRT__

Wont be updating much todae. too tired... juz went bck from town few hours back.. aBove were pics captured juz now....

8/10/2005 02:06:00 PM, Wednesday, August 10, 2005

I dunno y but i've been waking up later den usual diz dayz.. Luckily my mom dint nagg at me hehe... well a lil bit bout wat happened yesterdae.. and todae.. i SKIPPED SCh. lazy wanna go sch... hehehe but today's wasnt important coz itz optional.. u can choose no to go.
Yesterdae was a damn tiring dae n i wasnt enjoying myself at all!! AT ALL!! Esplanade was damn packed wif ppl.. especially the underpass between citylink and esplanade... there was like sooo many ppl coming towards the esplanade compared to the one goin out towards citylink. It sux... i was like sandwiched between ppl.. LOTSA PPL.. It similar to geylang's bazaar during Hari Raya but it is WORST DEN DAT.. My dear was like pulling my hand wherever he go n dint care if there's someone in between us... He's sweet but i noe he's hating it.. He dint like crowded places n even buses.. n he'll show me dat face of him.. hehehe.. but i dun mind.. im loving it... i wanted to wait for the fire works but ended giving up.. i cldnt tahan wif the SO HUMID weather.. It totally kills me.. N im the type who pespired a lot.. Luckily i dint stink...
we ended up goin to Bugis where he buy diz shirt... Noice... i like.... u noe he dint wanna use e cotton shirt wif the collar.. i dunno y but wen he tried, it actually fits him well. n he looked good in it.. he bought another shirt at penni. i chose dat for him too.. its a black t shirt wif golden prints on it.. not sure wat it says.. i tink it was "run DMC"... my guy loove wearing big t shirts n i let y visualize how big his shirt is.. i can be considerd tall rite as im standing at 167cm.. n u noe his shirts' length is like juz ABOVE MY KNEE!! i can like use it for a dress.. hehehe...
after buying he's shirt we chilled out at the new foodcourt in the middle of bugis village eating noting but ice kachang.. i dropped like one spoon of ice kachang on the table.. heehe.. so untidy...
after eating we went st home by bus...
datz particularly wat happened yesterdae... overall its a tiring dae n a waste of time...

8/09/2005 01:02:00 PM, Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Im Back!!!!!! Hahahaha...
anyway i dun tink anyone noes me but ya im back...!!
Firstly, i would like to wish my SINGAPORE an advanced 40th happy birthday!!
Ehem, ehem.... HaPpiE bDaE SiNgaPoRE,
HaPpiE bDaE SiNgApOrE,
HaPpiE bDaE SiNgaPoRe,
i LoVe SiNgaPoRe...
HeHeHe.. eNuF oF mY CrApz...

2ndly, i would like to thank my dear cuzzie for helping me finish up my
blog templete and edit it.. i ReaLLy appreciate it... She's none other then
WIDOT!! erm ya she is know as ida... She reali gud at it... im impresssed..
Hat's off to u cuzzie.. Loove u... hehehe..
Anyway u can see how different her webbie is from mine.. hahaha..

Now i would like to share wif u guys wat happened today...
i woke up LATE TODAE!! hahaha luckily i wasnt late for sch..
The reason was due to sleeping late yest... i slept at 4, waiting for my blog to finish and chatting wif me close fren.. Miss her soooOO much.. I miss
my old sch frens.. Now all has their own life to be taken of.. Im reali hoping to
meet up wif dem and catch up wif our lives..
BAck to my story, erm i was suppose to go to sch at 715 and i woke up at 7!!!
i woke up and bathed quickly (it was a REAL clean bathe ok) n juz grab
my jeans and sleeveless n off to sch.. Luckily it wasnt raining.. Coz wen i went out, i could oredi hear the thunder booming abt..(boomin abt? hahaha i apologize for my poor usage of english aite readers)...
The bus which arrived was packed wif people.. Usually it wasnt.. DEcided not to sit on the upper deck. too lazy n sleepy to walk up the stairs.. hehehe...
There's diz nyp student who was standin infront of me. I tink he's a lil bit retarded i tink.. hahaha so bad of me... He looked normal but dunno y wen i looked up at him, as usual, no impressions or anyting.. Howeva wen i looked away, he was like shaking he's leg, erm bouncing i tink, erm i dunno how to describe him, grinning and looked out of the window.. i tink he's a lil but 'off' hahaha....
im only late fo like 3 mins? lucky me... if i xceeded 10mins, my attendence wont be taken.. sch goes on as usual... the boring lectures and lessons.....
My B fetched me again.. Well he actually fetched me almost everytime... Loove him sooo much... Sayang him a lot.... wen we board the bus, there's this guy who was unwell i can say. erm he was ok at the moment den he was like laughing. but not loudly... he was trying to restrain himself from laughing.. as in u noe trying hard not to laugh... the auntie next to him was i tink kinda scared. den after awhike he stopped. den suddenly he kinda cry... he looked normal u noe.. but he wasnt a "threat" to anyone. again he was tryin to restrain himself from crying...
apart from that, noting special happen today....

erm to my FiKo,
sori if i've not done enuf like for me, like how u always sacrificed for me.
Skippin sch to pick me up coz im angry wif u in the afternoon. n stuff like dat.. im glad to haf found u.. LoOve u Lotz... MwAh..
(erm readers sorie for being mushy... hahahaha... apologies....)